I just found out that one of my favourite Youtuber’s dad died. Obviously, I do not know her personally, but all my condolences go to her and her family. I’m happy that she seems to have such an amazing group of people who will support her during this sad time and although I know she won’t read this, her subscribers love her with all their heart and are there for her in spirit.
It’s strange how something so unrelated to my own life just suddenly had this impact on me. Here I was just endless scrolling through tumblr, randomly refreshing my subscription box and wishing twitter was more interesting and people are facing major changes in their life every day. It was rather sobering to watch her video and it just made me remember how lucky I am that I have not yet experienced something so tragic.
I mean, I know there is an endless amount of hurt and tragedy going on in the world every day, I watch the news, I see the destruction but I have just become desensitised to it over the years. Her video, although short and not at all overly emotional reminded me that things like this actually happen. Maybe it’s because I’ve been watching her videos for a while and it feels as if I know her? I don’t know.
And of course, what was supposed to be an ‘I’m sorry for your loss’ post, has turned into something about me. I am too self-centred.
On that note, I shall stop writing. But honestly, I hope she is ok and that she’ll get through it. My thoughts are with her and her family.
(I know I rarely ever post things on here, but I just really needed to write this but I wasn’t sure where)
I get way to involved with characters from books and tv shows. For example, I am literally dying to see Castle and Beckett kiss as well as Elena and Damon. It’s really weird but I guess it’s coz I watch these shows so much its like the characters are people I know and what happens in their lives will important to me.
Yeah, I’m weird like that. What of it
NATHAN FILLION IS THE SEXIEST MAN ALIVE
I seem to have neglected this tumblr account.. i use my usual one now
it was supposed to be my diary but i guess that failed.
i can never stick to projects i try and start.
anyway, its holidays now so maybe i’ll use it more
x
youtubersarecoollike:
My feelings right now.
oh alex, you are amazing!
but i’m not sure if i should. I mean, its just a job but i quite like it. Of course, there is boys involved though, there are always boys involved with me..
i kinda like this guy who works with me but he went overseas about 2 months ago. I don’t want to quit until he comes back so we can like keep in touch..
BUT I DONT KNOW! I’M INDECISIVE, I CAN’T DECIDE ;)
lol any advice? my 3 followers?
:P
xx